Is My Focus Solely Lateral?

I've been reading "The Story" and it strikes me particularly at how much God uses generations of families to tell His Story! It is so important to invest in our families because it will impact future generations!

I think that when most people feel a calling to positively impact people, we tend to look at our purpose and the world so laterally (the present), but by investing in your own personal family, you are making a huge vertical impact on hundreds and thousands of people ahead, in the future.

It's also cool to see how God used the most messed up families possible! When you start shaking your head at your back-stabbing, murderous, cheating brother, remember the grace that God had on murderers like David and Moses. Not only did He have grace, but He fulfilled His purpose in miraculous ways through their lives.

So, I need to figure out if I am doing everything I can for those that I love and influence the very most in this world!! My family!!!

"Plop, Plop, Fizz, Fizz..."

So...why did I start this blog in the first place? I think I started it more out of frustration than anything else. I am always on the move, I was literally stuck in my chair because of my broken ankle with no outlet. This blog was a creative outlet I needed to get through that time in my life.

So...here I am again, finding myself frustrated. My foot is not literally propped up anymore, but I can feel that squirmy or unsettled feeling in the depths of my soul that my "foot is propped up!" I'm really wanting to get up off that couch!! The problem is, I don't know what couch I'm on, and how, when, or where I'm supposed to get up and go if I come to a standing position.

So...all of that to say that I think these unsettled feelings disguise themselves as frustration because I have no way to express them. I'm lonely in my ideas and thoughts. What I'm hoping, is that by creatively expressing myself, I'll be able to figure things out in a creative and positive way.

So...I really don't care if this is even read by another human being, it just feels good to throw up on my computer monitor, and heck, maybe someone will read this and understand what I mean. Maybe, just maybe, I am not completely crazy and someone else gets me!! Bonus!!!

So...Over the next few days and weeks, I am going to throw up on this screen and figure things out. All of these thoughts that are constantly swimming in my brain will be puked on my computer monitor.

And...My prayer and hope is that I'll be singing "Plop, plop, fizz, fizz, oh what a relief it is" at the top of my lungs at some point in this blogging journey!!!